Well, I actually love roller coasters, have since I was pretty young. My dear cousins sparked the love once again this past summer as I found myself headed face down on Superman, having the time of my life....So, last week, I was at the height of our adoption roller coaster, having the hope that Abush might get to be home with us for Christmas. I envisioned him on Christmas morning, listening to Scott read the story of the Savior's birth to him for the first time, clapping along as we sang happy birthday to Jesus, being happily overwhelmed as he found wrapped gifts under the tree....all for him, playing with cousins and brothers whom he would never have to officially say goodbye to. Yes, I was at the top, my favorite place to be, little did I know, an unexpected loop was around an invisible corner and would soon turn my stomach into shambles.
Our papers were sent to DC today, a huge step in the process so I confirmed w/ the agency that everything was ready to go. I then got the news that it would probably be 3-4 months before we would get to travel to Ethiopia to bring Abush home. It didn't matter how I tried to twist up a calendar in my mind...we're looking at February at the earliest. I have to say, that peace that the Lord promises, the one that transcends understanding, it covered me. To Him be the glory! Don't get me wrong, I am so sad that my boy has to stay in his orphanage any longer than necessary. We are here, we are able, we are ready, we want to take care of Abush. But here's what I know: For whatever reason the Maker has, we have to wait a few more months. His timing is perfect, His plan is perfect. And I know full well that no one can take care of Abush better than his Creator. So I sit and trust, a little nauseous and a lot sad. I have a mommy heart and all it wants is to take care of my boy, for him to feel secure, full, cleaned and full of joy. But the ride isn't over so on we go, waiting for the date and looking forward to meeting our boy. One thing I know, if God wants to bump the date up, He can and will. And yes, that's certainly what I'll be praying for. Hoping for a smooth ride as the papers go through to the embassy this week.
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Oh my precious daughter!! How I love you & hurt for you that you have to wait longer to meet Abush. You give me such joy though in your look on this that all is in God's timing. Abush will someday realize how lucky he is that God choose you for his momma. I love you & am here if you need me! Mom
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